Soon I became dehydrated and was feeling very thirsty. I could feel the dryness of my mouth, tongue and vocals. I looked at the road side in search of any general stores but couldn't find any. I continued walking and found a small shop, i went there and bought 3 packets of water. I washed my face with one packet of water and drank the rest 2 and was bit relieved. I did not know what to do, there were hundreds of thoughts running in my mind about what had happened and why? Obviously i didn't have any answer, but the flash of her thoughts gave me energy and simply started smiling when i got reminded of how we became friends and all.
 What happened and How?
           We were very close friends before we got into relationship. We had lots of fun and shared each and every incident in our lives that happened prior to engineering. We became close at the very beginning of the first semester in 2009. It happened in a very unusual way. On the first day of our college i saw her but didn't know her name nor remembered her face after the classes. It was routine but with new faces around and the first day of my engineering life. After the classes at around 3PM i went to office for some work. There i met the office madam "Raji" whom i talked with on the inauguration program. She told me to sign in some register, while i was signing I saw the names of many others of the same batch. I started looking through the register that is when i found a mobile number. I am quite good with numbers which made me remember the number within 2 glances at it. I did not see the name of the number that belonged to but then i saw the heading of the list which read "Girls". I don't know why but i was happy and came back to room on my bicycle.
         At around 8PM i was in mess (RRM2) with the new friends, i told them that i have a mobile number of a girl but don't know the name of her. They were surprised about how i got the number. I told them the story and told them that i am going to message her. I don't exactly remember their reactions but then they were normal i guess. After having my dinner i messaged her "Hi i am ***** belong to computer engineering with roll no ****** and got your mobile number from office and don't know your name."  Soon the reply came "Hi I am ***** from Electronics branch".
        We messaged for quite short period of time and then ended it. It didnt feel like talking to a stranger at all and somewhere i felt happy about it. She actually mentioned her roll no while talking. So both of us expecting to see each other on the next day as we have some common classes. I soon went to sleep excited to see her tomorrow.

to be continued....

On the Day.

       I don’t know what should I categorize this day into, the worst day of my life or just a day to remember waiting for the things to get better than today. I was just going through my e-mails which has been my daily routine since I was searching for a Job and I saw an e-mail which read my darling’s name, it was after 13 days after we stopped talking to each other. She wanted some space and as she was busy applying for education loan and visa etc. This day was very important for her, as it is the day of her visa interview process. Looking at that mail my eyes opened wide and smile came onto my lips. I felt so happy and seriously I don’t have any words to express my happiness. With a lot of happiness and crazy expectations I opened it and started reading by the end of first line I took my eyes off the monitor and got into shock, I couldn’t continue reading for a moments.  After recovering from the shock and coming to the real world I continued reading again. Within no time slowly a tear from my left eye started flowing through my cheek. It is scientifically proven that when your tear first flows from the left eye it’s because of sadness and yes it read that “I am over you and I just needed some time to clearly think and decide. Its peak time I made a decision, I don’t love you anymore and I don’t want you to talk to me anymore.”

        I was so devastated after reading the whole e-mail and couldn’t stop crying and I didn’t know what to do, I just left the house and started roaming on the roads. Tears were flowing continuously and couldn’t help stop crying even though I was walking on the road and everyone started staring at me as if I was some abnormal weird man. Suddenly the world seemed to be ended and everything looked so chaotic. I reached the municipal stadium nearby and sat on the stairs wiping my tears off my cheeks. For a moment death seemed so easy than to live in this bizarre world where I lost the most important person of my life whom I thought would be with me until the death invites me. But then it took no longer time to realize that she is still in this world and I have as many chances as any other person in the world and I can still pursue her.

          That thought made me a bit relieved but somewhere in my heart I couldn’t bare the feeling of losing her. She is the best thing that ever happened to me in my entire life. I know I wouldn’t be able to face my people (parents) at home, so I left from the ground straight to the road and started walking. I ran my hands through my pockets hoping to find if anything useful is in there. I found an hundred rupee, ten rupee note and a two-rupee coin. With this money one can survive only a day or may be two at the maximum. Anyways I wasn’t bothered about money, so I just kept walking. There I reached a bus bay and sat on the stand staring at the  people who are too much into their work and failed to notice a child crying 10 m away from the stop. I started walking towards the child who saw me and stretched his hand as if he was asking for something. I then realized that I had some money and I gave him little from whatever I had. He started running somewhere, which I couldn’t care more.

I started walking like I was hurrying for something important. I am not able to digest the fact that she is going to leave me without even saying a proper goodbye or not even over mobile. That’s when I remembered the scene from the movie “Life of Pi” and felt it hurts more when it happens in reality. My eyes became empty and dry, face became dirty with the smoke from the vehicles stuck to my face along with the tears.

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        I love a girl named cherry which is not her actual name but that is what she liked me to call her as i gave her that name at the early stages of our relationship. As we all know that most of the good things do not last forever so did our relationship. We were in relationship for 3.5 years and broke-up recently. She was the one who asked for it and gave some reasons which didn't sound like the actual ones. So, i did ask for the actual thing behind her decision and told her to tell me when she feels that i deserve to know the truth.
        This relationship happened in our BTech life and she broke-up with me after 4th year just months before leaving to US for her masters. She got into one of the top most universities and doing pretty well as i saw her results in her LinkedIn profile. She is very intelligent, charming and the most beautiful girl i have ever met in my life. I still love her so much and never tried to get over her as the feeling of loving her really feels awesome though it hurts sometimes. I don't know weather i am happy or sad.
        I just want to share my experience and the things that are going on in my life ever since she left me. It is not at all easy to get through these things and i learned many things along with facing my worst days. I will start it from the day she mentioned it to me about the break-up...