On the Day.

       I don’t know what should I categorize this day into, the worst day of my life or just a day to remember waiting for the things to get better than today. I was just going through my e-mails which has been my daily routine since I was searching for a Job and I saw an e-mail which read my darling’s name, it was after 13 days after we stopped talking to each other. She wanted some space and as she was busy applying for education loan and visa etc. This day was very important for her, as it is the day of her visa interview process. Looking at that mail my eyes opened wide and smile came onto my lips. I felt so happy and seriously I don’t have any words to express my happiness. With a lot of happiness and crazy expectations I opened it and started reading by the end of first line I took my eyes off the monitor and got into shock, I couldn’t continue reading for a moments.  After recovering from the shock and coming to the real world I continued reading again. Within no time slowly a tear from my left eye started flowing through my cheek. It is scientifically proven that when your tear first flows from the left eye it’s because of sadness and yes it read that “I am over you and I just needed some time to clearly think and decide. Its peak time I made a decision, I don’t love you anymore and I don’t want you to talk to me anymore.”

        I was so devastated after reading the whole e-mail and couldn’t stop crying and I didn’t know what to do, I just left the house and started roaming on the roads. Tears were flowing continuously and couldn’t help stop crying even though I was walking on the road and everyone started staring at me as if I was some abnormal weird man. Suddenly the world seemed to be ended and everything looked so chaotic. I reached the municipal stadium nearby and sat on the stairs wiping my tears off my cheeks. For a moment death seemed so easy than to live in this bizarre world where I lost the most important person of my life whom I thought would be with me until the death invites me. But then it took no longer time to realize that she is still in this world and I have as many chances as any other person in the world and I can still pursue her.

          That thought made me a bit relieved but somewhere in my heart I couldn’t bare the feeling of losing her. She is the best thing that ever happened to me in my entire life. I know I wouldn’t be able to face my people (parents) at home, so I left from the ground straight to the road and started walking. I ran my hands through my pockets hoping to find if anything useful is in there. I found an hundred rupee, ten rupee note and a two-rupee coin. With this money one can survive only a day or may be two at the maximum. Anyways I wasn’t bothered about money, so I just kept walking. There I reached a bus bay and sat on the stand staring at the  people who are too much into their work and failed to notice a child crying 10 m away from the stop. I started walking towards the child who saw me and stretched his hand as if he was asking for something. I then realized that I had some money and I gave him little from whatever I had. He started running somewhere, which I couldn’t care more.

I started walking like I was hurrying for something important. I am not able to digest the fact that she is going to leave me without even saying a proper goodbye or not even over mobile. That’s when I remembered the scene from the movie “Life of Pi” and felt it hurts more when it happens in reality. My eyes became empty and dry, face became dirty with the smoke from the vehicles stuck to my face along with the tears.

to be continued...